Introducing the new, same old me

This is a topic that means a lot to me so I’ll be keeping it pinned to the top of my blog, and it would mean even more if you’d be willing to read what I have to say.

The past few months have really torn me up in more ways than I can count, but I’d like to think that there’s some good coming out of it at least. When I started to rebuild myself after being sick for so many months, I realized that there is something that I can’t ignore anymore and that I hope will start to change me for the better. While I’ve known about it my whole life, I’ve always ignored it for one reason or another, or just being a suborn moron to be honest. So now that I’m having to rework my life style basically from the ground up, it’s time I start being who I know that I am.

While this may not match up with the image some of you have of me, I am Transgender.
I’ve known this for literally my entire life, and that’s not me being hyperbolic. As far back as I can remember that’s been who I am, so I won’t change just because I’m presenting differently. I am still mov, and have always been mov, just like I am trans, and have always been trans. So if me saying this changes how any of you think about me, please consider that I haven’t changed between now and then.

After today, I’ll be using She/Her pronouns but I’ll still be going by mov. And don’t worry, I’ll never drop that name, it is my name <3 though you may see me use nat now and then. I hope that this is a good move for myself and the community on a whole, and hopefully I can start to be more comfortable as an individual soon.

I have a few blog posts sorted that I’ll be linking below, but if you have any sincere questions please ask. Though I’m not likely to ask any questions about transition plans right now, or in the future, due to how personal and complicated they can be.

Thank you to those of you that read this, and a double thank you to everyone who has helped me over the past couple of months as I’ve prepared for this.
You all know who you are, and I could never, ever thank you enough for being some of the most supportive friends I’ve ever had.

My coming out post, this explains how being trans feels like to me in the style of my old blog posts. Kinda explains who Naspen is too, lol

This is a “short” explanation as to why I took so long to come out, even though I’ve known that I’m trans my whole life.

My transgender self-discovery

This is a simplified explanation of how I got to where I am today in regards to being transgender. As with most things in life, there’s more to it, but this hits the important points. It’s important to stress that this is not how everyone experiences it, and quite a few people get a lot more doubt about it than I did. I have my amazing Mom to thank for me being able to accept myself and my best friend MiniPixie for being there when I needed her. Suffice to say, I wrote this to emphasize the importance of accepting your friends and family, even if they’re not sure about what’s going on yet.

-Natalie, written with love and hope to everyone who needs it

Regarding my initial self-discovery story, it’s always very obvious to me. I’ve always known that I’m transgender in some capacity for as long as I can remember. Even though my father is, well, not open-minded, my mom is an amazing person who has always been there for just about anyone who needs her. So after my parents got divorced when I was 5 my mom became an extremely active LGBTQ+ advocate all the way until I was 14. I was always surrounded by people from all over the LGBTQ+ space that I never felt like anything about me was out of place. Even though I knew what transgender was, I never tried to apply that term to myself back then. But I know that if I had, then I would have agreed in a heartbeat. I guess that’s what happens when you’re a kid. You don’t really realize why labels are important, and why telling others how you feel is even more important.

That’s where the hard part of my story starts, all the way back when I was a stupid kid who couldn’t figure out what fights were worth fighting and for how long.

As I “eased” into puberty around 12, I realized I needed to talk to my mom. But I was so wrapped up in my newfound dysphoria that the idea of having to actually talk about it was killing me, and I kept putting it off. I knew for certain that I was actually trans at that point, I just needed to talk about it. I even had the name I’m using now picked out already. So I’d already put a lot of thought into it, but I just wasn’t ready to talk. I didn’t know how to handle it yet, and with all the added stress of puberty and dysphoria, I was just broken.
Then one night around when I turned 13, I was forced into it, but it wasn’t really in a good way. I’m going to skip the details as to how it happened because it’s somewhat personal, but it was something that could have happened by accident but that meant a lot to me at the time. If there are any transfems reading this, you might have an idea as to what I’m talking about, lol. My mom and her girlfriend (who she’d been with for the past 7 years and had been with us as long as I can remember) ended up trying to make a joke out of the situation and I got really upset and shut down, then I refused to talk about any of it for the next 9 years.

At that point I ended up just sabotaging myself through my teenage years, even knowing for an absolute certainty that I was trans and that my mom would absolutely support me to no end. I didn’t want to confront what happened to the point that I actively refused to think about it and only remembered it when I was alone. When I wasn’t alone, I was just angry all the time. Any little thing would set me off. Anyone not doing what I expected of them or what I had assumed was correct would send me into an unparalleled rage. Almost everyone assumed I was angry at the world, and to some extent, I am now, but the only excuse I have for how I acted back then was that I was angry at myself. Every day I felt like I was digging myself into a deeper hole, and then at night I’d look up at the hole I’d dug and see no way out. I made the mistake that put me there, and I continued to make it worse because I didn’t believe that I could do anything else.

When my mom finally broke and had to sign me over to the state for long-term mental care, I just gave up on fighting. Just because I couldn’t get out of the hole didn’t mean I had to make it worse. I wouldn’t fight anymore. I was tired of being ruled by my anger. But without my anger, I was consumed by my dysphoria. So during the 6 months that I was at in-patient care, I redefined myself around making sure that I was distracted and still a good person. I knew who I wanted to be, I knew who I was, and I knew who I could be without having to fight very hard. On the day I turned 16 I was released from in-patient care and have only been back into mental care once in the 6 years that have passed since then. So I’d say even considering that I was still trying to run away, I did a fairly decent job at not getting worse, I guess…

By age 17 I got my first job and then I started zoning out my dysphoria as best as I could. I was just jumping between anything and everything that could distract me. Playing games, reading, listening to music, learning, and joining random communities. Eventually one stuck, and it would kind of end up being both my downfall and savior. CapeCraft was such a large and time-consuming project that it pushed me past my limits, and when I got a high-stress, fast-paced job on top of that, I finally broke in August of 2020.

I could have probably kept that up for years, if not a decade or two. But in August last year, I hit a biochemical roadblock with how far I’d been pushing myself that resulted from me hitting my 3rd wave of Chronic Migraines and a new condition called Cortical Spreading Depolarization. The effects of the two lasted for over 7 months, and even as I’m writing this I’m still trying to get back to normal. But the important part for this story is that I was cycling between being depolarized and having a chronic migraine between August 2020 and midway through January 2021. Being depolarized, at least from how I understand it, is my brain being overworked to the point that it just physically can’t function properly anymore. So going from pain and hallucinating, to basically brain dead for 5 months.

When I finally started getting treatment in January, I was hit with a massive wave of dysphoria, but I couldn’t keep running anymore. Since the main thing that triggers the depolarization is overworking my brain, they had instructed me to take things slow for at least two months until my next appointment. So I had to reassess my situation, and I suddenly realized I am an idiot and came out as trans to my best friend, MiniPixie, and then my mom a couple of weeks later.

The End. Kinda

Enter stage left, Natalie

I want you to imagine an alarm that constantly going off around you. It’s been there as long as you can remember and you’re the only one who can hear it. Every time you ask anyone else if they hear it, they look at you like you’re insane, dismiss your question, and move on.

Oh, you’re just overthinking it! Just do what everyone else does and you’ll be fine.
There’s nothing to worry about, I’m sure you’ll get used to it eventually just like the rest of us.
Why would you want to do that?? Just be normal and it’ll pass.
It’s a phase we all go through. I remember a time when…

Despite everything they say, it stays with you through your childhood and worsens as you get older.

You can ignore it most of the time, like the sound of the fan by a desk. You start to think that maybe it really is just like that for everyone. Maybe life is just intrinsically annoying and you’re overthinking it. Who knows maybe if you stop thinking about it so much then everything they say will be true and you might actually get to enjoy yourself.
You go about your life trying to forget about the alarm sounding in your head, trying to forget what it’s telling you. But there are things that make it louder, make it harder to ignore. You see the echoes of it everywhere. Things that you could see making it better, maybe even things you’d like to do anyway. But every time you do something to help, people gawk and stare.

You look too different...
You’re trying too hard…
You don’t know what that’ll do to you in the long term.
Stop looking for attention and just act normal like the rest of us.

So despite everything you’ve done telling you differently, you just accept that it’ll always be there and that there’s nothing you can do about it. That you should just listen to what the masses say,

There is no alarm.
I’m just like everyone else.
there’s no need to “change”, I can be happy with the alarm.

Even with all of that though, it still feels harder than it should, it feels like you’ll always be haunted by it. Even when you can distract yourself from the sound, it’s there in your mind. Everything you see reminds you of what you’re ignoring, and the alarm is right behind that thought to make itself clear. Day after day you search for more distractions. Something that keeps the quiet, alone time away.
It’s easy enough to ignore when others are around, there’s so much noise that it just gets drowned out. So you fill your time with noise, just hoping that you’ll find something loud enough that you could enjoy. You run faster and faster, always chasing those moments of balance between being overwhelmed by the sound on the outside, or falling victim to the alarm within. It’s a never-ending race, one in which you can’t reset or relax, and where losing is still an unknown.

You can’t keep doing this, it’s tearing you apart. You have dreams that are being destroyed by your drive for silence, but you’re stuck. You’re running so fast but the thing you’re running from Is inside you. So despite all of your effort, you’re just standing still. There’s no getting away from it. The only thing you can do to survive is to sacrifice your life to the noise. To just give up on anything you want to do or be and let yourself rot under the torrent of sound. Unless they were wrong. Maybe the alarm can’t be ignored?

But what would that even mean? Every time you’ve tried it’s been a fight against those you love. Everyone you’ve ever known has told you that it’s not okay, that you shouldn’t be trying so hard to fight something that doesn’t exist! But if you’re having to fight so hard to even stand still, are you even sure it doesn’t exist?

But what if they are wrong? What if there is something different about me, not unique, just different?
Well, even they weren’t wrong, that alarm is part of me now. It’s been there forever, and I’ve built my life around ignoring it. Would I even be the same person without it?
What would I even do if you didn’t have to fight it anymore?
Even if I gave in, how far would the alarm take me?

There are so many questions that you’ve ignored for so long that the alarm is now louder than it’s ever been.

What does it want?
Why did I wait so long??
How can this be normal???
Have I been lying to myself all this time

There’s nothing dampening the alarm anymore, it’s the loudest thing you’ve ever heard.

I’m done ignoring my alarm. It doesn’t control me, but I’m not fighting it.
My alarm’s name is Natalie, and I am my alarm.

Client side mods I use on Fabric

I use a few client side mods when playing on vanilla servers that help immensely with either performance, understanding the current state of the game, or planning large projects. In streams and video’s I get asked which ones I’m using for a specific task, and that’s not always the easiest thing to explain on the spot because I’ve grown so used to using them that I’m not 100% sure which mod does what. So I’ve finally decided to compile a list of what mods I use and the basics of what I use them for.

This won’t be an extensive list of their features as most mods have a list of their own, but rather a list f the features I primarily use. So if a mod looks interesting to you, please check it out and see if it fits your use case. I’ll be linking each mods primary download location so that you can find it easier.


Tweakeroo can be found on CurseForge and Masady’s dev build site.
You will need MaliLib from CurseForge or Masady’s dev build site.

Tweakeroo is probably the mod I use the most. To put it incredibly simply, it’s a mod developed by and for the technical community to control aspects of the game on the fly. It offers a number of tweaks that I use nearly constantly, including but not limited to,

  • Toggle Sneak
  • Periodic Attack
  • Periodic Use
  • Fake Sneak
  • Aim Lock
  • Breaking Grid
  • Placement Grid
  • Hand Restock
  • Hold Attack
  • Hold Use
  • Auto Tool Repair
  • Shulker Box Display
  • Map Preview
  • Remove Own Potion Particles

Tweakeroo is built to allow players to either automatically perform some menial functions like holding down a key or repeatedly attacking, as well as making it much easier to build on a large scale by giving fine tuned control of placement, breaking, and movement mechanics. There are some relatively complicated “tweaks” that it offers in relation to the control of placement mechanics that make large scale and repetitive placement far more enjoyable than it would be otherwise. It does require quite a bit of configuration though.

Something to note is that some of the tweaks it offers may, and generally do, violate modification rules of some servers. The major example is that it offers the use of Free Cam. You can not use that on a server like CapeCraft where we have a strict policy against that kind of modification, but on servers like my SubServer it may be allowed. Always make sure you read the rules of a server before using mods.


MiniHud can be found on CurseForge and Masady’s dev build site.
You will need MaliLib from CurseForge or Masady’s dev build site.

MiniHud is another mod from Masady but this one’s focused on displaying information. Like Tweakeroo it has an incredible amount of options, though I primarily use it for plotting out complex shapes out of circles or spheres, showing the light level, and getting a miniature f3 screen with just the information I need.

MiniHud does an amazing job at keeping up with new information added to the game and is primarily made to make it easier to see the information in contexts where it’s needed. So if you find yourself having to look at the f3 screen a lot, I highly recommend it.


Litematica can be found on CurseForge and Masady’s dev build site.
You will need MaliLib from CurseForge or Masady’s dev build site.

Wait a sec, another mod from Masady?? Yup, Massady is an absolute bastion of technical mod development. Either way, litematica is the modern rebuild of the older Schematica mod and allows you to save Schematics of builds and then preview them elsewhere. I primarily use it for displaying builds that I drafted in creative on a survival world or for showing the mechanism of a farm.

If you want some details on how it works and how to use it before hopping into it, Massady links a very helpful Reddit post that explains most of it.

Item Scroller

Item Scroller can be found on CurseForge and Masady’s dev build site.
You will need MaliLib from CurseForge or Masady’s dev build site.

Item Scroller is a mod that’s been around as long as I can remember. It’s reactively simple and tends to have a few versions running around at any given moment. The current one that I use is maintained by, you guessed it, Masady. In general it adds a number of extremely useful ways to move items around in your inventory and the inventory of other containers. You can easily take out all items but 1 in a stack, you can move every stack of a specific item type into or out of a container, you can move one item at a time by scrolling, and at least a dozen other things. If you every get frustrated with inventory management, use this.

Smooth Boot

Smooth Boot can be found on CurseForge.

If you’re using Fabric for anything, use Smooth Boot with it. As far as the user is concerned it’s an incredibly simple mod, it works right of the box and requires little to no configuration. But the impact it can have on your experience in unquantifiable. Smooth Boot does what it says, it makes the game boot up in a more smooth and predictable way.

In my case Minecraft would cause major hitching on my PC for the 45 seconds or so that it was starting, so even if I was ok with it taking a bit longer to load it would affect other applications and in general just be annoying until it finished starting. Now that wouldn’t be all that bad unless I’m putting my PC under intense load by streaming, rendering, or running multiple instances of the game. So after adding Smooth Boot the game takes a small amount longer to start up when my PC is under load, but it’s nearly imperceptible since my computer doesn’t have a stroke every time. Absolute life saver.


Quickcraft can be found on CurseForge.

Quickcraft replicates the Bedrock Edition crafting system that was built for controllers. You can craft items without having to move your mouse away from the recipe book by pressing either CTRL or SHIFT to do a single item or a stack of items. While that may sound like a small change, when you’re crafting large amounts of items that motion back and forth really adds up. This is a really good quality of life mod that I wish was just added to Vanilla.

Bounding Box Outline Reloaded

Bounding Box Outline Reloaded can be found on CurseForge.

Bounding Box Outline Reloaded is a little clunky to be honest, but it offers a set of features that can’t be beat. It’s similar to MiniHud in that it allows you to visualize details about the game that are either hard or impossible to do otherwise. The difference between the two is what the specifically offer. My specific use case with Bounding Box Outline Reloaded lies in it’s ability to render the effect distance of beacons, conduits, and spawners as well as the fact that it has a server side plugin that can send bounding box data to clients running the mod. It’s definitely worthwhile to still have MiniHud because there are a number of things that it offers that Bounding Box Outline Reloaded doesn’t, but when connected to a Paper server or needing to work with effect rangers, Bounding Box Outline Reloaded takes the cake.

Cherished Worlds

Cherished Worlds can be found on CurseForge.

Cherished Worlds is a neat little utility mod that allows you to favorite specific worlds in your singleplayer menu. It’s really as simple as that, the worlds that you favorite will stay above other worlds so that you can get to them faster.


The Fabric version of WorldEdit can be found on CurseForge.

WorldEdit is one of those mods that has been around for years and almost everyone has at least heard of, so I won’t get too much into it here. All I really want to note is that WorldEdit does have a client side version for SinglePlayer worlds, which is what this is. It makes it a bit easier to create a new world and test something out instead of having to spin up a server to do the same. It doesn’t affect what I can do on a server at all though, so keep that in mind.

WorldEdit CUI

The Fabric version of WorldEdit CUI can be found on CurseForge.

WorldEdit CUI is a Client Side 3D Visualizer for WorldEdit selections. It works if you just have WorldEdit CUI on your client but Have WorldEdit on your server, so is an amazing tool for any level of WorldEdit work. To describe what it does a bit clearer, it outlines the WorldEdit selections you make using a grid and gives you a few option on how you want to display that grid. It’s incredibly simple on it’s face, but having that extra bit of information can make defining selections a walk in the park.

Minecraft Capes

Minecraft Capes can be found on CurseForge and James090500’s Website.

Minecraft Capes is a cosmetic mod Developed by one of my bet friends, James090500. It’s goal is to replicate the vanilla capes that Mojang gave out at past Minecon events and allow more players the ability to enjoy them. If that interests you, go check it out!

Replay Mod

Replay Mod can be found exclusively on their Website.

Replay Mod is truly a ubiquitous name in Minecraft Content Creation. It’s been used to create incredible timelapeses of projects for as long as I can remember and has been used by professional build teams from around the globe. It allows you to record the world as you interact with it and then when you’re done, define any number of custom camera paths for a final render. The render can be sped up, have different video settings, use shaders when you weren’t before, and can be output as a regular video file to be used anywhere you like. I highly recommend checking it out, even if you just want to use it for personal recording.

keep in mind though, not all servers allow it to be used because the replay editor allows you to fly around in the recorded area as if you were in spectator mode. Effectively granting you free cam. Always read the server rules before using mods.

Why Minecraft means so much to me

It’s been a while since I’ve made a blog post, but today Mojang released a video that really hit me and I wanted to get the words out while I had them. I would strongly recommend watching that video, it’s extremely short but it does a great job of capturing a person’s experience with Minecraft and their disability.

The video tells a story about a person by the name of Join Chris who was born with underdeveloped corneas which are what focuses the light into your eyes so you can see. His story about how Minecraft assisted in his adaptation to his disability is incredible and amazes me to no end, so I don’t want to downplay the differences between what he did and is doing by telling y own story. However, I feel it’s important to bring multiple angles up in this conversation because Minecraft, and games in general, have so much to offer.

The idea that games can be more than just something fun to do is something I strive to live by, and I feel Minecraft is such a perfect example of that. It’s so open to interpretation and the player that it can be a great stand-in for things the player may be in danger doing otherwise. I think that’s why I love it so much, I’ve mentioned before that Minecraft is what taught me how to control a character when I was younger and I always get laughed at about it (not in a bad way lol), but it couldn’t be more true. Like most people with autism I have/had a very poor spatial sense and would manage to hurt myself by trying to make it better. Minecraft gave me a place with known limits and a way to try something again with my surroundings exactly the same as they were, meaning that I could make mistakes and learn from them without injuring myself or others.

I don’t think I’ve ever been in as bad of a situation as Join Chris was, at least not one that can be attributed to what Minecraft taught me, but with how basic of a skill that perception is I can’t say for sure. What I can say is that what I learn in-game is what gave me my IRL reflexes Well… what little I have. When I was younger (<10) I was attending Physical Therapy 3 times a week so that I could learn how to write, run, catch things, throw things, or even walk without hurting myself. There are so many situations IRL that can result in extreme injury if you can’t remember how to move properly, and that was me.

When I turned 14 or so my best friend at the time got me into Minecraft. Up until then, I had been playing basic flash games that didn’t require me to move a character. Every time I would try a game that had a character to control I wasn’t able to move the way the game wanted me to and it just resulted in my frustration. But I took on to moving in Minecraft quicker than anything I ever had. Every limit was visible and static, I knew what I was looking for and I could track it as I moved.
If you’ve never had to re-learn how to walk or had issues with moving in general you may not know how essential of a thing that is. When you move you have to keep a visual in your head, however unconsciously, of your body and the area directly around you. Everyone has a different amount of skill with that, being good at it results in a good sense of direction, and being poor at it results in clumsiness. I was on the very low end of that spectrum in that I couldn’t keep track of myself at all, I basically had no balance and would always slam myself into things because I forgot something about where I was. Always covered in bruises and marks from missing my target.

With how simple Minecraft is, even in 3D, I was able to learn how to think relative to what I saw better than what my Physical Therapist could explain. That’s not to say they didn’t help me at all, not in the least! But Minecraft is what made it click for me, and I feel like it was a similar situation for Join Chris. You can tell someone that the sun rises in the East and that you can use that to orientate, but you never know how to use that information effectively until you get the chance to put it into practice. Minecraft was the perfect place for me to do that and I still do to this day.

Even watching my content, you wouldn’t notice how much Minecraft has changed my life. Most of the struggles I had when I started I’ve learned to work around and if you didn’t know me then you wouldn’t be able to see the difference. If you are interested in seeing how Join Chris plays Minecraft through his disability with other blind Minecrafters he does have a YouTube channel where he does just that and more. I’ve only watched a small amount of his content but he seems like an amazing person who is taking a challenge I could never imagine in stride.
Also, check out the video Mojang posted, they do an amazing job at making Minecraft accessible to people who need it.

Minecraft Resource Packs

Below is a list of and links to the resource packs I use in my vanilla Minecraft streams. I’ll keep this updated with the ones I use and any updates/information associated with them.

Alternate Netherite Gear

I wasn’t too fond of the normal Netherite texture, even though I understand Jappa’s reasoning I wanted to change it up a bit. While browsing through Reddit I found this post that linked this texture pack. I was really happy with how it looked and incorporated it into my regular game play.

Vanilla Tweaks

Vanilla tweaks is a tool developed by Xisumavoid’s dev team with the goal of providing useful and unobtrusive changes to vanilla minecraft. I use their resource pack tools to create a more enjoyable experience for myself. This link is to my shared resource pack link and will show all of the packs I use from them. If you want to edit the packs selected upload the pack from the link above to their main resource pack page.

A word to define a lifetime

When I was growing up I was ravenous for knowledge, and random pieces of information that I came across would be next obsession. Every week I was on a whole new topic, a completely different field of study. While I still retain a large portion of that hunger, to the extent that “Information Sponge” has come to be my de facto self-description, there has been a rather large change in a significant portion of my world view.

When I was about 9, I got stuck into reading the dictionary, I loved learning new ways to describe things that I had previously had to work out with multiple words. Each page turned unlocked summarized knowledge I didn’t know I was missing. Well, one day I found a word that would change my life and mental stability for years to come. I remember looking at that word, realizing I had never fully understood its scope, never realized what it could mean. Now I feel like I’m good at inferring words I’ve never heard when used in a sentence. But of course, with a word like this, one that holds so much between the lines, I had a very limited view of what it entailed.

This word has defined my reaction to the world ever since then, and I’ve done my best to explain what it means to me over the years. But for whatever reason the word doesn’t mean as much to everyone else, it doesn’t seem to capture the same intent outside of my mind. To me, it defines and references an individual’s world view, brings forth the idea of an imperfect mind, shows that the world we see is altered by our ideas and motivations. The world is defined by our perception.

Perception is a simple word that is thrown around in everyday conversation without thought, but it has shaped everything I see about the world. In that word I see the differences that state of mind enforce on your vision, I see the effect of memories and knowledge on normal reactions. Through it I follow every change I make, I watch myself grow daily, watching my “self” get lost in time. The word perception holds so much value to me, it will always remind me of the vast differences between every mind.

How to get your crash logs – Vanilla Minecraft launcher

When Minecraft runs into an issue the best way to get down to it’s cause is to take a look at the games logs. You will almost always find the problem mentioned in there, albeit very abstractly. Crash logs are very useful when trying to pin down why the game is acting weird or just plain crashing and will almost always be asked for when you try to get support with a mod or other game feature. Even reporting vanilla bugs requires the a crash or game log.

First things first, where is the log file. With the assumption you are using the vanilla minecraft launcher you will want to navigate to your .minecraft folder. In windows you can do so by typing %appdata%/.minecraft into the address bar. This will take you directly to the folder that your default game installation is stored in.

As seen in image1 there are two main log directories, crash-reports and logs. You’ll find a different kind of log in each folder, first we are going to look at the crash-reports folder and the logs within.

Image 1

Highlighted here are the primary log folders for vanilla Minecraft.

Crash Report

Let’s start with the crash reports folder, the actual process for getting the logs is very similar between the two folders but the trick is getting the right one. Crash reports are named with a set of key criteria. An example crash report name would be crash-2020-04-17_19.33.41-client. When you look at it a few things will jump out at you, but let’s go through each section one by one.

This states that the game actually crashed, should always say this.
This is the date as it is set on your computer. The generated log will always have the date on which it was generated.
This is the time in the 24-hour format as it was on your computer when the log was generated. It will always be in the timezone your computer is set to.
This simply specifies whether it was the server or client that crashed.
You can get still server crashes when playing in single player as the game runs a local server for you.

Now that you know what the file name means, we need to make sure that you grab the log with the most useful information. If you know the date and time the crash happened you should be able to use the file name to find the correct report. If you don’t know when it happened and you are able to reproduce the crash then you can cause the crash and grab the new crash report it generates. If it’s not generating a crash report or someone requests it then the log file will most likely have the information needed.

Game log


This log file is generated every time you start the game, it displays debug information about nearly every startup step that the game has to go through. It will almost always get the event or action that crashed the game. If your bug is not creating a crash report or you need more information you should take a look at the latest.log

Now the log file isn’t as cleanly laid out for the average user as the crash reports are. The file you generally need is named latest.log as each time you run the game the previous log file is archived. So reproducing the crash is generally easier than figuring out which archived log contains the crash.
Latest.log will always be the information from the last time the game was run, so you want to make sure that the issue you are trying to debug happened the last time you opened the game. Once you are sure that you need information from your last game launch you can navigate to the logs folder in your .minecraft folder. To go directly to the logs folder type %appdata%/.minecraft/logs into the windows explorer address bar. Once in the folder you can either open the latest.log file and either upload the file itself or use a text hosting site.


Every time you open the game it loads a new latest.log file. However the old one is not removed. It is automatically compressed and named based on the date. The file format is far simpler than the crash reports and that can make it hard to get the right one. An example log archive would be like so,
It starts off with the date in order of Year-Month,Day and is followed by the number of logs generated that day. So in the example case this was generated the 6th time minecraft had been launch on april 17th 2020.

Upload and share

Both crash logs and latest.log are way to long to post in conventional messaging sites. Most of the time it will just result in a massive block of text that 90% of people will be forced to scroll through. Lucky for us there are sites made with the purpose of hosting large amounts of text and making them easy to read. If you are looking for help online you will almost always be asked to upload your log to a site that doe sso. People have started hosting their own text hosting sites for various reasons, and if the community you are looking for support from asks you to use theirs then the procces is almost identical between them.


I’m going to start with pastebin as it’s the first one I ever used and started the push for this type of site. To go to the site use this link. Once there you should see a landing page close to the one in image 2.

In image 2 you can see a large text box labeled New Paste, now each website built for this purpose will always start you out on a page with that textbox. It is as simple as taking your log/text, pasting it into that text box, and clicking the sites equivalent to New Paste.

Once you click the New Paste button you should be sent to the link that now hosts you text. As seen in image 3 this page shows the user that posted it (Guest if the user did not create an account prior to posting), a syntax highlighted version, and the raw paste text. This page is exactly what someone looking to read the paste will see and need, so all you have to do is copy the website address from your browser and give it to whoever asked. The link should look like this is you used pastebin and should be similar on other sites.

Life devoured

Your broken decrepit minds
Ancient in all but time
Burn life away like flies
While drowning the overburdened skies

A generation of greed
Left us all their ashes burned from trees
Bending our systems to fit your need
Destroying lives to find your keys

Warping the Fortune of all
With humanities stolen call
Your lives of squandered wealth
Only serve to hinder worldwide health

Your desire the source of turmoil
A hunger for your own rotting stench
A future fueled by stolen oil
Destroyed in your desire to quench

Sit there you may
As the world breaks
As it falls from your life’s decay
While you sit amid the bloodied lakes

On you lands the blame
In your hands was the seed
From your life was built the flame
That devoured the world in greed